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I have a confession to make.
This?
Was me.
I absolutely, absolutely did not intend that post to belittle or shame anyone, least of all not the maker of that video, who I feel is extremely talented. I am deeply saddened to see that the comments suggest that that video might have been removed from YouTube because of my secret. I know very well how it feels to feel attacked and belittled, so if that was the case I will not plead with that video maker to put it back up. I can only say that it was in no way my intent to make him feel unsafe or unwelcome.
My secret was meant to express something not about that fan or about people with kinks or interests I do not share, but about myself. I wrote it after reading several comments about that video that were squeeing over how hot it was. I was sad to not share in their glee. And why? Because my own ability to suspend disbelief was not sufficient to enable me to visualize the scene. That is not a fault of the performer, or of the people who like xeno without size-shifting, or anything else. That is a fault of my brain being over-literal.
I did not think my comment would be hurtful. I thought it would elicit laughs.
In fact, and this can only be ascribed to another fault of mine, I thought that recording was produced for laughs. I made the assumption that the maker of that video was someone who found sticky implausible and made the recording because he thought titillating fangirls would be funny. I thought he was, as they say, doing it "for the lulz." I did not stop to consider that perhaps this was his kink, or that even if it was not he was making it for friends.
That is my mistake and all I can do is apologize profusely.
I can't put my words back in my head, but I wish I could. Especially if they have made a fan feel unwelcome, or those who enjoy his work feel insulted. There is no one to blame for that but me, and there are a thousand better ways I could have phrased "I wish I could get on this bandwagon, but my overliteral brain won't let me."
Even then, it may be true that I shouldn't have said anything. That secret wasn't a confession of a kink; it was a response to a conversation that, it appears, only I was having anyway.
I hope that the creator of that work, and all of his fans and friends, see my apology. I had considered keeping my head down, and remaining anon. My friends advised me to do so; I thank them for their thoughts, but seeing that my words may have driven someone off I feel the only decent thing to do is confess and apologize. I owe it to that person and all who care about him to set right what I can. I can't bring anyone back who feels that my actions are the last hurtful straw that drove him off, but I can say that I'm sorry, and hope it helps in some small way.
I hope that person will understand that I absolutely intended no slight to him or even criticism of his very impressive work.
I'm sorry.
Since I don't have a personal Tumblr, I don't really have a good way to put this there, so if one of my friends would please repost this there, I would really appreciate it.
This?
Was me.
I absolutely, absolutely did not intend that post to belittle or shame anyone, least of all not the maker of that video, who I feel is extremely talented. I am deeply saddened to see that the comments suggest that that video might have been removed from YouTube because of my secret. I know very well how it feels to feel attacked and belittled, so if that was the case I will not plead with that video maker to put it back up. I can only say that it was in no way my intent to make him feel unsafe or unwelcome.
My secret was meant to express something not about that fan or about people with kinks or interests I do not share, but about myself. I wrote it after reading several comments about that video that were squeeing over how hot it was. I was sad to not share in their glee. And why? Because my own ability to suspend disbelief was not sufficient to enable me to visualize the scene. That is not a fault of the performer, or of the people who like xeno without size-shifting, or anything else. That is a fault of my brain being over-literal.
I did not think my comment would be hurtful. I thought it would elicit laughs.
In fact, and this can only be ascribed to another fault of mine, I thought that recording was produced for laughs. I made the assumption that the maker of that video was someone who found sticky implausible and made the recording because he thought titillating fangirls would be funny. I thought he was, as they say, doing it "for the lulz." I did not stop to consider that perhaps this was his kink, or that even if it was not he was making it for friends.
That is my mistake and all I can do is apologize profusely.
I can't put my words back in my head, but I wish I could. Especially if they have made a fan feel unwelcome, or those who enjoy his work feel insulted. There is no one to blame for that but me, and there are a thousand better ways I could have phrased "I wish I could get on this bandwagon, but my overliteral brain won't let me."
Even then, it may be true that I shouldn't have said anything. That secret wasn't a confession of a kink; it was a response to a conversation that, it appears, only I was having anyway.
I hope that the creator of that work, and all of his fans and friends, see my apology. I had considered keeping my head down, and remaining anon. My friends advised me to do so; I thank them for their thoughts, but seeing that my words may have driven someone off I feel the only decent thing to do is confess and apologize. I owe it to that person and all who care about him to set right what I can. I can't bring anyone back who feels that my actions are the last hurtful straw that drove him off, but I can say that I'm sorry, and hope it helps in some small way.
I hope that person will understand that I absolutely intended no slight to him or even criticism of his very impressive work.
I'm sorry.
Since I don't have a personal Tumblr, I don't really have a good way to put this there, so if one of my friends would please repost this there, I would really appreciate it.